Moving forward

Just because the agreement is made that you wanna move forward does NOT change the way you feel about the situation. Your actions from then and forward will debate if you can REALLY move forward or not. No you don't wanna be reminded of your past but you have to understand that your forthcoming actions just might put you in that position. But yea .. Lets try AGAIN for the millionth time to move "forward" and hopefully it works this time. 

Now what?

I think im gonna strt searching for attention elsewhere 😔 .. The way i'm unhappy is something different .. I'm a woman i love love&affection .. && i havent been getting much of that here where i been for over a year .. 😔 .. I dont want to give my time to anyone else but wat else is there to do ? 😔 i wish amazing was still alive. The way i was always respectfully tended to is exactly what i need right now .. I need you and its wen yu want to be available .. 😔 .. Theres always another preference .. I jus want to be wanted i want to be loved i want to be appreciated .. Now ur gonna say .. "So i dont do those things??? You dont want me to NOT to those things" .. && ur not noticing that ur not being consistent 😔 .. Consistency is VERY important in a relationship .. I dont think ive ever wanted something this bad from ONE person for this long and more .. && our "situation" has absolutely nothing to do with it. I live i laugh i love .. But even still im not always happy .. 😔 .. So now what ?