Roses are Blue

Violets are Red
Roses are Blue ........

My entire world flipped upside down when i met you
You take the breathe from my lungs leaving me speechless
And i dont mind... because there is no harder task than trying to find
Words to justly define how brightly you shine in my eyes

Roses are Blue
Violets are Red

It amazes me how many laps you seem to run around the track in my head
What makes it more crazy is that we practically just met
What a memorial occasion that was, one i will not soon forget
The day that your name so smoothly slipped from your tongue through your lips
Was the day that my entire world flip
And now the last thing i want, is for my world to be fixed
Leave it alone
Im willing to take the risk, to blindly let my heart leap off of the cliff
If just tell me at the bottom awaits your kiss
And you know that friend your parents always compared you to...and say "If your friend jumped off a bridge would you do it too?"
Well if it were You
Im jumping with no parachute
I would run into a blazing building
If knew your love needed to be rescued
My niqqas can call me crazy, or pussy whipped
I dont care, just as long my lips can be acquainted with your lovely lips
You know? I really do wonder what the future holds for me and you
Even if we dont get to grow old and you marry a baller like Derrick Rose I would be satisfied with being blessed with ever meeting you
Honestly im not even concerned in sleeping with you
My soul is quenched just by seeing you
I wana hold you through the scary movies, protect from freddy, jason, and jeeper creepers too
In the wraps of my arms is where im keeping you
While you're awake and sleep too
It doesnt matter
I wana so you affection in every imaginable fashion
I loved to see you smile and hear you laughing
You flipped my world and Im so glad it happened

Rose are red
Violets are blue

Now since I met you
I cant imagine life without you.

Questioning Love

Love... we all question it
We question if we are in it
If we believe it exists
And if we say it.. we question if we meant it
We use it to describe feelings for long time acquaintances with another
Or the feeling one has for sister or brother
Father or Mother
We start at a young age using this powerful term and it becomes habit as we grow old
Just tryin to put a face on feeling we cant begin to decode
Love is a mystery even I question it myself
Just because love is so many other things... just to define it we need help
So we watch the romantic movies and read the books with page after page drenched in passion and romance
Just to help aide our explanation of this emotional slow dance
Love can be tricky
And let hearts step beyond land
Just to fall in the wrong hands
Love can be so warm
And manipulate the soul into believing that you have found the ONE
Just to have your heart Harmed
Love can make you feel ways you never imagine to feel
Place your mind heart and body in and estate of faith in another that is almost surreal
It can make you cry laugh frown and grin
Send you to worlds end just to make some else happy and you'll go again and again
Because thats what love does... it reaches inside you
Hops on the back of your decision making and rides you to do things that you would never logically decide to..do
And it causes us shame pain and heartache
Friends always ask us well why do you love em then?
And our answer is I just do.
And thats it
The only answer we come up with, no further explanation no nothing
We just do.
This poem right here for all those who's hearts fell into the abyss
Who were lost in the midst of a well timed kiss
This is not just for the women this is also for the brothers
All of the Lovers who thought they were meant to be with another until the finally realized other
Im doing this for my past girlfriends who blame me for breaking they hearts
I dont even know where to start I guess we just drifted apart
But if i told you i love you meant it and every tear that im dropping on this keyboard as I spit this is authentic
I question love I question every kiss every hug I question all the downs and the ups I question every time i hear the word love I question my first love I question the best and the worst love I question false love I question true love... I question you love.
Dont show me no more mates
Show me my soul mate
Make me believe that there is such thing as someone being made for me
Im tired of the dating and these boogie ass relations
I want a revelation
Show me some compensation for all of my pain and my patience
Send me my angel
And if requests
Falls upon the ears of the deaf
And my tosses of love darts never hit their mark
On that females heart
Well until then....Love in my text will always be followed by a question mark (?)

what's worth fighting for

Sometimes I ask myself
What is worth fighting for
We unite for fights and war
But when its time to love
Unity is absent
I see peace through the glass
Since I can't get to it i just leave a hand print
I dream to know what it really feels like
To be at peace, but im always awakened by real life
Whats really worth fighting for?
I stand lost, with all my weapons and armor on
Strapped to the T, but with no objective
I think the target is gone
So where does that leave a soldier
A man Standing in no mans land
No momma there to hold ya
Ready to fight without a cause
So eager to unleash the beast within
But have no reason to expose your teeth or claws
It leaves me lost
Heart Frost-bite to the touch
Because I don't know why I'm here
But for some strange reason I can never give up
On this journey to find fight worth fighting
Then It hit me like almighty Zeus pelted me with a bolt of lightning
Love is worth it all
Worth much more than fighting for
Thats something to die for
Lay down your life for
And i don't mean love like
Husband and Wife
I mean love like
Love thy neighbor just because like you
God gave them life
What is worth fighting for?
Love is!
I can finally exhale
And put down my armor and weapons
This fight calls for no bloodshed
There are already enough dead
Because of hate
In the words of MLK
At the center of non-violence, stands the principle of love
So you can fight on either side of the
War in Iraq or the War on Drugs
But The cause I will not only fight for but DIE for is Love

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Love is the same as pain
Just in a different form
You feel it stronger than any emotion ever felt
You hear it
Feel it
See it
Touch it
You know when its there.

You hear the words "I Love You"
Don't necessarily believe it
But when you see it,
You see someone putting you before themselves
You see them making you happy before themselves.

When you feel it,
Your mind wonders and ponders
Your mind begins to narrow down thoughts
To that one significant other in your life
The one that makes you smile
Helps you get through your days
Not always sufficiently but
Most definitely in a serene
Calm and unique way
You might exaggerate the little things you always do
So that everyone can see
The love in your eyes,.

When you touch love,
You feel that special someone
The warmth from their gentle embrace
Sometimes it allows shivers to run through your spine
And butterflies in your stomach
Your heart beats fast
And tears come down your face
Ans you just think and recognize that, that one person
is the difference
between life and death,
You frowning and smiling,
You laughing and crying,
You wishing that you were dead and you thanking God for the breath of life.

Thinking of Oliver
brings that thought,
Sight
And feeling to me.
that is how it is known that i love my Oliver.
When i think of him,
A smile takes place of my heart
And i feel like my heart takes me where i want to go.
My mind has no effect on me anymore.
My heart does and says it all.
I love you Oliver
And i always will .

Dwelling on my past.

There are so many things that I've done that I wish I hadn't. So many mistakes and bad decisions I made and I take partial credit for it all. Although I am my own person and I've always made my own decisions, I blame my parents for these bad decisions and mistakes. When I was in elementary school, my father moved out of the house. Even though when he was there it was like he wasn't, his presence still stood out in the house. My brothers and I didn't really favor my father due to his temper. He had a really bad one. He believed in physical discipline along with being grounded and we hated that. His behavior made me fearful in him. When he left it didn't really take toll on us. We were actually kind of happy. But now that I look back on it, fear in my dad really kept me innocent. My mom is the best mom in the world and I love her to death. She trusted me and took my word over anyone else. But at certain points in my life, I took advantage of her trust and made stupid decisions some that she still to this day don't know about. I honestly feel like if my father stayed at home with us, the decisions that I made, would not have been possible because I would be afraid of getting in trouble. Recently, this depressed me. It took toll on my life but now that I have grown to see the mistakes that I made I just embrace and look at it as a lesson learned.

Future

My goals in life include opening an entertainment center, opening a hair salon, creating a non-profit organization for teens and becoming a criminologist. I've been doing a lot of thinking about how I am going to go about achieving my goals and I haven't came up with anything. I spoke to my sister about it and as always, I was told "You need money to make money." I have to go into deeper thinking about the means and ways of accomplishing my goals in life. I think I'm going to talk to my dad about it. He's really smart and should have a lot to say about this. I know he's going to be very proud of me because daddy always dreams big and he wants his children to do the same.

Beautiful Soul

I awoke this morning
With a life all new,
I found my thoughts
Running to you.
Your look your touch
I know they are real
You done so much
You made me feel.
My mind is spinning,
Out of control,
 the thoughts of winning
Your beautiful soul.

Love

Love is not limited by time, space or age. it is the highest expression of human emotion. When it is given purely without expectation of return and accepted freely without perimeter and conditions it is a gift unto itself. Nothing can break loves bond. Not even the face of death and that is the one treasure that makes life beautiful. i love thee with the breath, smiles and tears of all my life and if God chooses, I shall love thee better after death.

Shh! Its a Secret!

Is it okay to keep secrets from your spouse? To extent yes but mostly no. I feel like if this "secret" is something of the past and sheds no light on your future then leave it there. Why risk your future telling about your past when it isn't relevant? Ask no questions and tell no lies. But if the secret can affect your future then it should be addressed prior to it being exposed. It is better to come forth before the other person finds out. If the other person finds out before he/she is told, it would result in lack of trust for the other person and the relationship may fall apart.

Cheating!

Why do people have sexual encounters with people other than their partners? Why do people cheat? I believe that cheating is done through either emptiness, greediness or maintenance. People may feel that their partner doesn't satisfy them the way someone else can. For example their partner may not "go down town" because they don't want to so, the person would go else where to get it from someone who is willing to "go down town." Some people have enough. They have affection and sexual satisfaction but yet when they see something that looks attractive, they want that too. And last but not least, I think that the people around you may influence you to cheat so that you can maintain some sort of status within your social life. These days, a guy sleeping with a lot of females are commended for it and so they might want to keep up that reputation.

Unbalanced Love

Yeah, I believe you love me but the problem with this "love" we "share" is that it's not balanced. People often say "You must learn to love yourself before you love others" or "You can't love someone if you don't first love yourself." Well I, DISAGREE! I learned to love you more than myself and fell short when it came to catering to me for years at a time. Putting your heart and emotions before me and my basic emotional needs as a human being but you live by the foolishness loving yourself more than me and hurting me in the process. To me, that isn't real love that is being "shared" between us. Shared love involves sacrifices and adjustments. The other person's well being comes before your own. It becomes your first priority, like how we are God's first priority. Hurt doesn't exist but yet is accepted because it is in our nature to make mistakes. But still, it is in my nature to forgive mistakes that weren't willfully committed; mistakes that aren't always obvious to the naked eye, it is in my nature to love, appreciate and accept those who love me, the way I love them.

Where I am

Where am I? I'll tell you where I am. I am in the real world. The world where everyone is about money, fashion and catering to their selfish needs. The world where truths are buried by lies and the value of love, sex, marriage, respect, loyalty and honesty has diminished as if it never meant a thing. The world where every woman stands alone and every man for themselves. The world I DON'T belong in. Now, Come Find me!

Who are you?

Who are you to come into my life and captivate my heart like you had good to do with it? Who are you to feed me bullshit and tell me that it was good for me? Who the fuck are you? Who are you to use me for my time, energy, money, body and talent? Who are you to degrade my personality with your actions? Who the fuck are you? You are no better than I am! No one is better than I am! I am a beautiful bitch. Smart Cool and Funny. I'm more than generous and genuine and I have nothing but love for everyone. Even those that hurt me. I know who I am but who the FUCK ARE YOU? Who gave you permission to treat me like you cared and then take it all away? Who said it was okay to make me think that we were building, getting stronger and with time and effort we would be the best of the best? What made you think it was okay to NOT care about me when I did nothing but care for you? Who are you to accept my all and give nothing in return? For months at a time my world, my life and my heart revolved around you! And now that you're not into me any more you find it okay to just treat me like I never mattered like I hurt you like I'm a bad person. Fucking with you helped me to realize what kind of person I am. I give and don't take I just wait my turn to receive. And now that nothing but pain has come of that I don't feel comfortable trusting anyone the way I trusted you. I could never give my heart, mind and soul to another unless I get theirs first. I'm washing my hands of your blood. I refuse to  be treated this way because I don't know who the FUCK YOU ARE ANYMORE!

Stealing "So Beautiful"

You're my honey
My lover, my baby
Every night you make me
Want you and I go crazy
I feel like I
Was made for you, baby
Tell me if you
Feel the same way

'Cuz this just feels so right
I don't want to squander no time
If i ever had to choose I'm sure
I will always choose to be with you
Boy don't you know

You're so cute,
I wanna give my all to you
Not just tonight but the rest of my life
I'm gonna be always there by your side.
You're so cute,
I wanna give my all to you

Not just tonight but the rest of my life
I'm gonna be always there by your side.

When I'm alone,
You don't know how much I miss you
The only thing on my mind
I how much of me I can give to you
We are so fine
Tell me if you
Feel the same way

'Cuz this just feels so right
I don't want to squander no time
If i ever had to choose I'm sure
I will always choose to be with you
Boy don't you know

You're so cute,
I wanna give my all to you

Not just tonight but the rest of my life
I'm gonna be always there by your side.
You're so cute,
I wanna give my all to you

Not just tonight but the rest of my life
I'm gonna be always there by your side.

"So Beautiful" In my own way

Stanza1: You are mine and you make me want you so bad that I go crazy. I think we were made for each other. Do you feel the way I do?
Stanza2: Being with you feels like it's suppose to be that way. Time is of the essence so let's not waste it. I know that no matter what happens you will be the one I always want to be with.
Stanza3: You are so gorgeous and you are the only one I want to give my love to. For the rest of my life I'll always be with you.
Stanza4: When you're away I miss you so much. You're always on my mind and I'm always thinking of how much I can give you. Do you feel the same way?

Why What's up?

Wait. Which Short Stuff are you talking about? The one that I met at Belville Manor? The one I had no interest in at first because his hair was a mess? The one who lured me in by staring into my eyes? The one I missed the same day I met him? The same Short Stuff that promised that we could go to Ripley's believe it or not but never came through with it? The one that ignores which ever text messages that he wants? The one I love no matter how much he pisses me off? The short stuff that says we're building even though I'm not sure we are? Isn't he the same guy that's always screaming his head off? That's the guy that never feels bad or sorry but might feel a way about something right? The DJ that runs hood streets? The one that all my friends hate? The guy I never have anything nice to say about but is the one I want to be with ? Yeah. I know him. Why What's up?

So Beautiful

In the song "So Beautiful," Musiq Soulchild discusses his feelings for his lover. He explains to her where she stands in his life and the affect that she has on him. He dedicates himself to loving her and being with her and that is the one thing that most females want within their relationship. I love this song because I can really relate to his feelings for his lover. This is mostly a summary of how a female would feel towards her lover. Sometimes men don't express their feelings towards their lover. It isn't considered "manly." So for him to sing a song as such would definitely touch his girlfriend's heart and really appreciate him and his feelings towards her.

No Title.

I don't want a title! Like a story, title limits things! How far will we get with a title? A title will always bring problems. Things are going to come up like thoughts and people and things you've done that you weren't suppose to and then the title begins to lose importance. People get tempted to do bad things when put in certain situations. With a title, more hurt comes about when these bad things come about and the story changes. Like a story, a title has to be related to the story being told so you won't learn the insides and out, the possibles and impossibles. I don't want a title! When you title a story before it's written , all your thoughts and expressions has to be revolved around that title but without one, any level can be reached , any thought counts and can and will be incorporated so I don't want a title. A story is more open without a title. The characters don't have to limit themselves to this one particular topic and can be open with the other character with just about anything and then they become best friends. Just like there's rules to a story, whether there is a title or not, like sticking to the tense you start with, and capitalizing names and important places, relationships have rules. These rules should be broken down in the beginning just like it is in a story. The main rules should definitely be the three main moral imperatives of life. The morals that keep people together and often separate people when not followed through correctly and those morals are honesty, loyalty and respect. Once this is broken down and followed through, the limit to where relationships can go is sky high and cannot be broken, disturbed or even touched by anyone else but the two main characters. But long story short, the main characters are you and I and there's no telling what our story is or will be about because there is no title. Lets just make it the best story ever and title it in the end.

Not for me, Like for you

Often times i get confused about who we are to each other. I lay here and think i miss my short stuff and if i could i would just hop in a jet and scoop you before anyone even notices you left. Then i feel like you wouldn't do it for me like i would do it for you. It's common for me to put the works aside to please you, to put life on hold to be with you, to push the people around me a bit to the side to make way for you to come through. But you wouldn't do it for me, like i would do it for you. I remember the time you had to marinate the first time i told you no. What you got out was totally different than what I tried to explain. You said "Well I guess I'm not important." I dare not use that phrase on you how dare you on me? I have more than right to though. Curse those who disagree because you wouldn't do for me like I would do for you. I don't wanna be your second or last resort. It's a turn off when you say "Okay let me see what I'm doing first and I will let you know." To me, that's a nice way to say "You're not as important as everything else. So if i don't have anything important to do then we can do what you want to do" while knowing that you have nothing to do. It's like saying, "I have nothing to do right now so we can do what you want to do but I don't want to so I'm going to look for something else to do." A simple no would have done the trick because you don't do for me like I do for you. I hate when you lead me on with the maybes knowing that odds are it's a no. A person with hope says maybe and has faith in a positive outcome but one such as myself, says maybe and expect the worst. Tell me no first and change your mind later because hopes and expectations incorporated with faith leads to disappointments. I love u so much I would do everything for you knowing you won't do for me and that hurts. What deeper pain can come of that? "Not for me like for you, hurts burns and is an emotional torch killing me slowly. One made to love but learning to hate. Having energy to hate love because it's not for me like it is for you.

Why?

I never enjoyed being in a cluster. Being with him all the time or always talking to him. I was just sort of annoying after a while but your different. Why is it so hard to NOT think about you? I always did my own thing whether he agreed or not. If he didn't like it, it was more like, too bad he'll get over it but things changed when I met you. Why does your opinion matter so much? To an extent, I'm open with you. I tell you everything worth dreaming, thinking and speaking. Hiding things isn't much of an option. Why is it hard to keep my secrets a secret? For some reason,  I don't move the way I would with anyone else. I'm scared to go in too deep even though I'm already in waist deep. I don't want to hear "well we're not in a relationship so chill with all that!" So if I feel a way about something, I won;t always act on it because that thought is there. Had I been confident the way you are, I would know that I wasn't going anywhere. But I could never be too sure.

Lost in Life

Who am I? What do I stand for? Where do I stand in Life? Why don't I know who I am? When will I find me? Better yet, How do I find me? I'm like a lost soul in this huge world. I know how I feel but I don't know how to express myself. I know my likes and dislikes but I alter it for the happiness of others. I would settle for what I don't want so that someone else can have the happiness that I feel I deserved. Somehow I feel like this would somehow bring blessings upon me. I'm afraid of being judged. I would love to live by the saying "Only God can judge me" and not care what everyone else thought or said. I would love to have the mentality that believes that since you don't put clothes on my back, food on my table, money in my pocket or a roof over my head, your opinion doesn't matter as much as someone who does. I take risks to prove something to myself. It's never because I actually want to. I care about how people feels about every and anything. I worry about offending other people. I worry about hurting others. I would rather get my heart broken than be the heart breaker. I would love until I can't love anymore if I want to. Who am I? I am a lost soul! I barely know what kind of life I want to live, who I want to live it with much less the morals I want to live by. Who am I? I feel like I grew up backwards. I wish to be the way I was when I was younger. I was so much wiser and could resist negative temptations. I could fight against things I didn't believe in, thought rationally and be love-able all at the same time. I wasn't as nervous as I have become now. Judgments to me in the past, no matter how harsh, were taken as constrictive criticism. it was an opportunity to change for the better. Who am I? Or better yet, Who have I become?

Following Mine.

Dear Short Stuff,
So everything you say matters to me. What ever you think, matters to me. Everything you do, matters to me. When you tell me something, often times, ALL the time, I just want to do it. You tell me jump and I die to respond how high, but pride in myself and independence is what holds me back. Even though I don't say how high, I might just rephrase it because I don't want to feel like your mutt. I want to feel equality here. I don't want to feel like you or I are of higher power. When doing things, I think, well how would he feel about this? And because your my significant other, I either don't do it or try not to mention it to you which is a lot harder that it sounds. I'm easily offended and I don't show it. But you say you know me so I would expect you to know when. Sometimes I feel a way unconsciously about the things you say and do, the way you always want to be right because you strongly agree with your view. I care but I can't agree with something I disagree with. That's less than my style and I won't change. Or will I? I don't want to make my decisions revolving around you for the simple fact that I am my own person and I want to follow mine. Something as small as me walking a few blocks to the two train instead of being lazy and taking a train to that train should never be an argument. Let me do what I want. It's a walk and I want to follow mine! I can direct myself with your help but not with you trying to just tell me what to do. I love you because you're one of the smartest people I know, you're truly sincere and your independence speaks a lot for you but don't use that against me. You of all people should know I don't like to be put on the spot since you know me so well and that's exactly what you did. I want to say what happens between us, stays between us but I wouldn't exactly be following that. But I'm going to make change. This is the relationship I've always asked for. Intimacy, Bonding, I'm there for you and you're here for me. I just hope and pray that I'm not putting in more than what your attempting to give. I'm more content than I was yesterday and I'm praying for a better tomorrow. I'm done expressing my love for you through the words I speak. I show you what I can and my goal is to love you better. I just hope you notice it.

Dreams

I dream of the day that when you call me, I could feel the way I did when the phone first rang your name. I dream of the day I first stared into your eyes. That was the day I first met you in Belville Manor and that same day you told me to be different from the rest that didn't last. I missed you as soon as you left and I didn't even know you.  I dreamed I would love you, and I do. I dreamed I would be there for you through thick and thin and still, I am. My dreams are what I prayed for us to be. I want you to want me and need you to love me. Even though I feel like I have you, I still want you. That's the only way to appreciate what's within reach. I appreciate you and the things you do to and for me. Your the dream I dreamed while growing up. Your the dream come true. This is what I prayed for, and this is what I got. I'm happy with it because this is what fits. Dreaming for anything more would complicate things. Asking for anything less would cause emptiness and unhappiness. Dreaming of you is what helps me get through. And so i dream on.

Comfort in the skin your in.

She has a dark forehead, a round face, bags under her eyes, open pores, dark spots all over her legs, ugly cuticles and an enlarged stomach (which by the way isn't that large at all). Her hair isn't as long as she would like it to be but she deals with it. Her arms are semi-hairy and all the veins pop out of her skin. Her eye sight is one stop away from being absolutely horrible and her teeth are not as straight as she thought they would be after her braces were taken out (she blames that on the dentist). She looks in the mirror and complains everyday before she leaves the house and then goes on with her day. Then she would see someone with a burned skin, one good eye and a bigger gut than she has and then she sees another person with no hair, a crazy mixture of acne and pimples, and crooked teeth and that is when she would find comfort in the skin she's in. She would run home and admire her big beautiful brown eyes, thick juicy lips, medium length thick hair, perfect height and the curves that she was blessed with. She would pray and thank God for the skin she's in, go to sleep and wake up with the same complaints as yesterday. Has she learned nothing? Appreciate, love and find comfort in the skin your in.

Talked out of Suicide by the younger one.

She was crazy depressed over this, pathological liar. He loved her and then snatched it from her. He portrayed himself to be the perfect man who did nothing wrong. For this, she almost took her own life but I said to her: You're going to kill yourself over a man? Someone who bleeds the same blood you bleed? And breathes the same air you breathe? He's no more human than you are and so he's no better than you so cut your bullshit real talk. You should have been done a long time ago with guys who hurt you. You let your emotions get the best of you. Mommy said every disappointment is a blessing. Everyone knows what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Every mistake is meant to be made. Eddie said mistakes don't matter, I say it's the lesson you learn from it that counts most. I believe in loyalty to yourself before others. Honesty and Loyalty, Love and Respect for yourself will make you a strong individual. Don't fall short of the glory of God because of some lame guy got you wanting to commit suicide. It's not worth it. God loves you and you love yourself and there are plenty of people willing to love you just the same. Patience is a virtue so just relax and everything will be fine.

Thinking he's perfect (Womans Perspective)

I've never loved someone so, perfect. He called me every morning, noon and night. He made sure I ate well and cared about my well being. He was the sweetest of his kind and the most perfect man alive. Just his aroma helped to love him more. He talked about growing old with me, and having children, and buying a house basically accomplishing what society defines as the "American Dream." He was the sweetest of his kind and the most perfect man alive; and then it all falls. He left his email open. I loved him and trusted him always and I said forever but that was when curiosity killed me inside. Pictures he sent out to plenty of different women, emails saying I love you and miss you too, pictures received from women that couldn't look any worse were all a part of his inbox, outbox, and saved messages. I died inside that night because now I can't trust him and when I brought it up, he said "I did nothing wrong". How could the one I gave my heart to betray me in such a way? But yet I remained by his side. How stupid of me. Phone calls started coming in at crazy hours in the night and he would say, "that was for my brother." Something doesn't add up here. Your brother has his own phone. Why would she be calling your phone at this hour in the night. But he said "What? I did nothing wrong!" And yet, I remained by his side. I bought a car for him, gave him money to shop, provided food for him, payed his car insurance and put gas in the car. Too bad I was barely in it. I don't trust him with female friends. He is way too much of a flirt and I will not allow myself to get played. Those were the words I wanted to live by but by me remaining by his side, I was allowing it anyway. I knew he was no good for me because he was always doing wrong but he started off so perfect. I just wanted the man I fell in love with. His sister always told me, if he truly loves you, he wouldn't treat you that way. But I am in love with a pathological liar that will never right his wrongs. How do I let go?

I did nothing wrong (Males Perspective)

I did nothing wrong. Okay, maybe I sent out a few pictures that I shouldn't have and have a couple of  accounts on websites that often cause trouble between couples and have a cell phone that she doesn't know about and lied about the people that call me at 3 in the morning when she spends the night at my house and lie to her about going away so that I can spend time with another girl. But still. I did nothing wrong. She just takes things the wrong way. Just because all the signs are there, doesn't mean it's true. I mean, it is true but she doesn't know for sure so I'm sticking to my word. I did nothing wrong. She always takes things and make an issue.I can't have any female friends and just because she doesn't like to go out, that means I have to stay at my house with her even though she invited herself over. I'm a DJ and I like to party and get drunk so she needs to deal with it. She says I can't have female friends because she doesn't trust me. Is that the real reason why? Or is it because she's afraid to lose me? She loves me so much that her insecurities start to build up and just because my close female friend from school sent me a text saying that she misses and loves me, she thinks I'm messing around with her. God said to love everyone so I said it back. So I did nothing wrong. That's the reason why I say it to her too. I think she takes it another way but that's her problem not mine. Maybe she should look in deeper on the relationship that we have. I don't mean to lead her on and have her thinking that I am in love with her but that's what she wants and so in order to keep spending her money on my clothes and car, I won't tell her any different. That is her responsibility. So I still say, I did nothing wrong.

Boy

First wash the dishes thoroughly; then take out the trash; don't wear your pants below your butt; learn how to cook; learn to do your own laundry; learn to clean up after yourself, you do not have a maid; always apply your manners; go to straight to school; always keep in contact if you want to make plans after school; homework comes first; don't let the street lights beat you home on a school night or I will beat you when you get home; take time out to learn about God; don't be disrespectful in church; pay attention to the word and try to apply it to your life in some way; don't borrow other peoples belongings; if you want something you will work for it; if you need something, I will give it to you; be careful of the company you keep; always have a mind of your own; it's okay to cry, but don't make it a habit; always observe your surroundings; pay attention to other peoples actions; first observe, then ask questions; let your anger out in a positive way, sports is best; play to the best of your ability; always push yourself; cheating doesn't prove you to be a winner; always play fair; learn to pick the right girl; don't give more than you receive in relationships; never cheat on your girlfriend; trust is earned; learn to trust yourself; learn to trust others; never trust 100%; respect is given until lost; be tough; learn to forgive but never forget; treat women how you would want me or your sister to be treated; don't follow fashion, create it; be a role model; always be confident; never settle for less than what you feel you deserve; teach yourself discipline; know the time to play and the time to be serious; always stay on top of your goals; think outside the box; don't over analyze simple things; be a man about yours; accept your wrongs and make them right; apologize when necessary; never argue, only debate; when your wife becomes nagging, just say yes; you are a bread winner, but that doesn't mean you provide for your family by yourself; don't allow yourself to be used; spoil your family without actually spoiling them; like I have done to you; Love and cherish your wife and your mother; you have a wonderful father, thank him and follow in his foot steps; be better than the best; and when you fall you get right back up.

Men and Women

General Review of the Sex Situation
Dorothy Parker

Woman wants monogamy;
Man delights in novelty.
Love is woman's moon and sun;
Man has other forms of fun.
Woman lives but in her lord;
Count to ten, and man is bored.
With gist and sum of it,
What earthly good can come of it?

I agree with this poem to an extent. Only because there is no doubt in my mind that this occurs in the world but, in all reality men aren't all that way and neither are women. I have noticed that women value sex a lot more than men do. Many women find it to be a connection of love and if violated, it is disrespect to their bodies. I have also noticed  through hearing conversations and movies and history that men like sexual praise. Women tend to allow love to be their everything while men seem to be more self-centered and selfish. There are women that live their lives around their values and what they believe is important then there's some men that are the complete opposite. They would live their lives just to enjoy the time they have to spend here on earth. But this goes back to my belief that things aren't always what they seem to be. With meeting men that are always self-centered and enjoy doing other things that are important to them and not to their significant other of course anyone would believe in this poem 100%. And the same goes for women. If you only know women that believe in monogamy and living her life with love as her motivation and living her life for her values then again this poem would fit your beliefs just right. But not every man is like that and not every woman lives that way. People are different all over the world and since this poem describes qualities of men and women then you will be sure to find a woman with masculine qualities and a man with feminine qualities. It all depends on the perspective of that person and how they decide to live their life. This is a general review but it is also a judgmental review. One would have to have met every man and every woman to prove this to be 100% true.

I Believe..

I believe ...

1. Family comes first.
2. Loyalty comes before honesty.
3. Karma is real.
4. Everybody has somebody.
5. God exists.
6. Humans are destructive to the world around us.
7. Honesty is the best social policy.
8. People should lie when they absolutely need to and not when they want to.
9. People shouldn't judge a book by its cover
10. Friends come and go
11. If you have to lie about something you shouldn't be doing it
12. Food helps people relax
13. Everything happens for a reason.
14. Without trust there is no relationship.
15. People should only explain themselves to those who deserve it.
16. The color white is a symbol of purity.
17. Parents should listen to their children ALL the time.
18. Children should listen to their parents ALL the time.
19. School isn't for everyone.
20. Happy people belong in happy places.
21. Exposure to the "real" world corrupts a child's mind.
22. Television often teaches children bad things.
23. A child is most likely to do well when they fear their parents.
24. People who lie without reason are afraid of truth.
25. It's unhealthy to live in a fantasy world.
26. Real people do real things.
27. Cellular phones is one of the best inventions.
28. People can be easily manipulated once the manipulator has mastered "kairos".
29. People shouldn't get nervous because people are going to judge them anyway.
30. Crying doesn't solve the issue but it helps you feel better.
31. A great smile comes with clean teeth.
32. Parents should never search through their children's belongings without permission.
33. Cheating is not acceptable. (Unless it's an open relationship)
34. People should never search through their significant other's belongings without permission.
35. You should never trust anyone 100%.
36. People should always expect the unexpected.
37. You should never swear for anyone.
38. Spirits are real.
39. Things can always get worse.
40. People make sure the things they want to do gets done.
41. Everyone deserves a second chance.
42. Once is a mistake, twice is a habit.
43. People change.
44. There is no logical explanation for joining a gang.
45. Cigarettes should be illegal.
46. If parents know their child drinks, they should teach them to learn their limit for safety reasons.
47. Teens do what they want regardless of what they are told.
48. When people say "Follow your HEART," it's another way to say "Do what you THINK is best for you."
49. No means NO.
50. Children are innocent until they truly understand the definition of morals.
    

About Me =)

I go by the name of Juiicy. I was given that name in high school during my Step practice. I am 18 years young and I try to enjoy life for what it is and not what it seems to be. I use to love being in long relationships but over the years I've changed. I'm not so much of a great talker unless you are. I'm very nice, sometimes sassy, extra intelligent, and i am not a fool only for love if expressed correctly. Sensitivity is part of my personality. My instincts allow me to predict the future. I'm slightly spoiled, a bit picky, appreciative and far from materialistic. I'm a totally cool soul. I'm pretty preeminent if you ask me. I'm mostly calm cool and collective yet fun to the extreme.  Anything else you would like to know don't hesitate to comment the post and ask.You can find out more about me and how my mind works in other posts that I will be posting.